Summer 2010
It’s been a long, long time since I last blog. It must have been somewhat outdated. I think I had to log in 3 times during these months of absence just to update WordPress and the respective pluggins.
I’ve been so tied up these days, first juggling with my mom’s visit, my hubby’s operation in the local hospital, tuition for other kids and homeschooling my own. Hubby feels bad about not earning enough to support the kids’ education and that I have to be the one working to cover that up. Mike’s school now allows the elder son to go for free but demands half of tuition fee for the second, excluding miscellaneous fees. His P tries very hard to fight for better benefits but we told him no, it’s been six years, if they have treasured what they (the team of staff in the poor shabby campus) had done for the students, they would have given that long ago. Not until our kids are so off the school pace. Having to put them back in now would mean that they have to let go of many things that they are learning and get back to the solely academic environment, which I deemed, put boys (in general) in a disadvantage because of the way they are created. Besides, there are just too much politics in the upper management that I know of that I just don’t want to involve my kids. Hubby said something that struck me, “I know what it is to have faith, yet it is in this company that I’ve learnt what it is to have no faith.” Back stabbing (even from fellow Christians) occur often. If not for frequent prayers, he and his P (also a fellow brother-in Christ) would not have been covered. Until now, they cannot understand why would people not see the benefits of teamwork and prefer to stab each other for more power, or even to look good in front of the big bosses. This is sad indeed. The only thing I can say to my husband is to trust that the Lord will signal him to leave when it is time as He always do.
Mom came for long stay and left home in December. I had to climb over the Great (Internet) Wall of China with free VPNs, only to find out that they were subsequently blocked. Now I have to share one with my husband (which he subscribed). My brother had his trip to US postponed because he got into a car accident and injured his knee. Dad had an operation. My brother and his family members took turns to fall sick over the change in temperature in Singapore. The Cannells left home for US and the firstborn E, got married! We had a simple recital at SALT. We also had a small EXPO at the same time when Shanghai started hers. Paul got strangled in a fight with classmate who lost control of his temper while in a game (he was attacked from behind – a blind spot of Tae Kwon Do) and his teammate D Hiscock came to his rescue and pulled the boy away. Paul was really scared. John and buddy ALA started getting the habit of exchanging stuffs – from toys to sandals! Paul is now into pre-adolescence years and he can be quite a handful when it comes to discipline. I’m starting to lag in my work as the administrator for SALT – my Head Coop had been helping me to cover minutes. Yikes! And I was put in-charged to be the coordinator of of the church’s children section in the Family Conference during the May holiday. I was so overwhelmed and stressed out but God’s gracious – lots of help came in the last minute. And then, I was sick for one whole month when the conference was all over because I was sooooooo stressed – it’s like letting go of a tightly wound up spring suddenly with great speed.
This summer’s packed with more kids for my English tuition class and increased number of classes (thank God and I have to pray for strength to carry on – it’s a good problem) and I have to learn to juggle with time and attention. The boys are having regular academic classes, swimming, tae kwon do, tennis, go-ki, Chinese history & literature class (online), piano and Chinese zither. I have to download “Romance of Three Kingdoms” (animation version for this one), “Warring States” and video lectures (by well known uni-proffs.) from the internet to supplement Paul’s Chinese history and literature class. Paul’s been pestering me about the Chinese calligraphy class – for some local schools, Grade 3 pupils must do Chinese calligraphy – under Chinese Language. Paul’s already in Grade 4 (according to Singapore, but he has just finished China’s Chinese Grade 3 – going at his pace). I’m still trying to find a good teacher that can come to the house because frequent traveling is hard on me, and of course, it has to be within my budget to engage one. I’m still trying to save money to take the kids to Guilin. We’ve not decided to go to the Shanghai EXPO as we heard from many of our friends who went that the queues are really long.
Paul has shown greater improvement and zeal in learning Chinese lately. He used to grumble and give me really shabby work and untidy handwriting, even his Chinese composition was in a shameful level. Now, he suddenly seems to be more interested in the subject and make sure he writes neatly. John’s been improving greatly and can manage to do work (English instructions) with a bit of help. Thanks to RLA! She recommended “Between the Lions” and “Oxford Reading Tree” which I can get them here within my tight budget.
Right now, John is still working hard to English and Math. ALA is catching up with him quickly and he fears of lagging behind, so he pushed himself. Paul is suffering from heatstroke. He didn’t drink enough water yesterday during and after tennis class. It was 37C yesterday and the heat was really bad. I got him 2 bottles of drinks but he didn’t finish it. During dinner, he took only one cup of tea. That clearly did not do him any good, so he’s now cooling off under the air-con and drinking lots of water.
It’s never easy homeschooling. My husband often faces challenge from parents at work, asking if the school is good, why is it that our kids are not in school. They don’t see the other side of the coin. I feel the stress of seeing my kids struggling academically and progress slower that their peers. I upset of having to deal with them all the time. I feel tired of having to work to cover their tuition fees for other courses. Yet, I told myself not to give up hope. God has made them men, and godly men I will train them to be. It is more important to train them up in character (no doubt I’m having lots of trouble now) and surround them with the right teachers and peers at these critical years than to sacrifice them to gain academic points. I trust God that it’ll be well worth in the long run – a man’s got to be what a man’s got to be.






